A job for little'ol'me!

Well it seems the sun's shining on Helena today, I got the job at our church library and bookstore! What an amazing experience this will be, I'm in a whole new arena of work that I've never experienced!
My wonderful supervisor, Kattie, assured me that there would be no tackling shop lifters, no customers spitting in your face, no homeless people peeing in the aisles, and no beer cans hidden in the bathroom stalls! I can't believe my luck and good fortune! Upon times slowness in our little store, I am required to pick up a book, and learn about it. There are so many wonderful books that people may have questions about, and it's up to me to try and read them all! Oooh, the pressure and excitement, and it's such a lovely little store!
On the one side we have the bookstore, with many glorious Christian/Spiritual reads, as well as a selection of toys and other fun merchandise. On the other side we have the check out section, with books and DVD's, and music. I get to work in both sides of the store, and can't wait to increase my product knowledge.
There is no need for a "Service 6" call at this job, and no need to fear that used needles and syringes are hidden behind merchandise. This may be the first job I've had in over 10 years that I'm not having to make weekly calls to dispatch....and not constantly clearing checks to see if the account is real or fake. People come to the bookstore because they want to be there, not because they have to. There will be no pan-handlers to chase off, and no confiscating fake Id's. It's a happy little store, with a wonderful view of the church playground, where children frolic and sing.
Perhaps in the future I'll return to my crime stopping ways, but for now, I am allowed a peaceful job in a beautiful setting. Glorious days are ahead, full of birds chirping and and flowers singing, and I can't wait to buy some new clothes that will help me shine in my new job. Did I mention there's no chance of raw meat juices dripping on your clothes, or crates of milk falling and spoiling your outfit?
Cheers!

Catch Up!

This year the goal is to update our family blog more frequently! I am still trying to figure out how to get more pictures and cute stuff on my site, but that will come with time.
As February rolls in, we began to deal with the sickies, (do they ever end?). Skyanna has the flu with possible pneumonia, and we've got all three kiddos on tamaflu, to reduce their chances of catching it! Skyanna is a champ, and has beat the odds already! She is keeping fluids down this morning, and her fever is much lower. She got two shots yesterday, and barely batted an eye! We were advised to put her in the hospital over night, but vetoed that idea, preferring to keep tabs on her at home. She did great!
We have made out sun room into a second playroom, complete with rocking chair for mom, pillows for the kids, and art supplies. Once spring hits, we will be in that room daily!
Right now I am looking for some possible work outside of the home, it's not fun job searching! Grandma and Grandpa have generously offered to watch Benjamin if I find work, and I'm hoping to work days to be home with the kiddos after school. Best scenario would be to find work in a daycare, and bring Benjamin with me, but we'll see what opens up. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
This year as a family and as an individual, we are focusing on laughter, honesty, and perspective. How silly it is to get so caught up on the petty things in life, or the injustices of being human! The best things in life, and the most rewarding, are things that you work for, and the people you laugh with! I feel like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders, and I am free to be myself, laugh, and not conform to the mold society often places on people. I think this freedom also makes me a better mother, and able to laugh more with my kids. It is important to be very careful who and what you let into your life, and never forget, this life is meant to be lived victoriously!
More for later!

Well it looks as though Fall has finally found us, the cool weather feels amazing! Yesterday Adam and I spent a big chunk of the day on the trampoline with the 2 oldest, (Ben was napping)and listened to the wind blow! It's like a July day back in Washington....
This month has been so amazing, let me elaborate:

My mom came out last week, and stayed for 7 days, and Skyanna was in Heaven! She was a little sick on her visit, but managed to keep up good spirits for the kids! We spent some time walking and talking, and took in the CCC sale, which was awesome! We got Ben clothes that actually fit his big belly, and got the kids some early Christmas gifts.

We had an ARD meeting at the school, and changed Anthony's IEP, and now things are going smoother at school! This year is different for Anthony, and we love watching him change and grow! Soon he will be able to see an awesome counselor once a week, and she will work on social skills with him, and just get to know him! Adam does lunch 3 days a week with him, and the other 2 he does fine on his own!
Skyanna is a gem, loving school, picking her own outfits to wear, and continuing her speech program. Benjamin continues to grow, nearing the 25 lb. mark, and we are preparing for his 1st birthday with much excitement!

God has really showed me these past few weeks that "Things are not always as they seem." When we try to control people or situations around us, even with the best of intentions, we fail to let God work. Also, when we are so busy worrying and trying to fix those around us, we can miss out on God's "still small voice." I have learned this month that I am not all powerful, or in control, and cannot fix everything to my liking. God is working in the lives of those around me, and in me, and I cannot see his ultimate plan. In order to truly love my friends, I must let go and let God. My heart brims over with love and concern for many around me, and my nature is to pry, pry, pry, and try to fix and appease everyone around me, but God seems to be closing that door on me. I am learning to turn to Him, and in so doing, give my friends that best gift I can,which is prayer.

I have met the most wonderful ladies here in TX, and I love them all deeply! My job as a friend is to love and pray for my girls, and support them AND their family in the process. I love all my girls and their significant others, and look forward to seeing what God is going to bring about in their lives! I want my door always to be open, and I want my heart to be open as well, to receiving, understanding, and loving those around me. As women I feel strongly that we need to pray for, and support each other, in our roles as mothers, and as wives.

Please know that my door is always open for anyone who wants to chat, joke, cry, throw fits, talk deeply, just sit, read God's word together, eat, walk, or whatever! I'm so excited about the future, what God is doing, and watching those around me grow, especially my family! Also, I hope to be posting more pics once our camera gets fixed, or replaced!

Here comes change!

Well, Skyanna and Antony are officially in school, and loving it! Anthony is almost completely better from his dehydration, and loving the rigid routine of first grade. Skyanna has amazed me with her ability to go potty for someone else, make new friends, and keep her energy up! Yesterday she came home from school and asked to do homework, so I got out some of her work books, and she traced letters like a pro! (Something she would never normally do for me!).
Benjamin continues to grow fat and plump, and I'm pretty sure he said "giddy" (kitty) yesterday. We have gotten Sam and Princess, two tuxedo kittens, for Anthony and Skyanna. Seriously, they are like more work than my 3 kids! They eat non-stop, meow all the time, jump on the table and counters, continually get stuck in cupboards, eat anything on the floor including playdo, and faithfully stink up their cat box a few times every hour! On the other hand, they let the kids man-handle them, sit in the kids laps, purr all the time, and let Sissy carry them around everywhere!
Adam goes back to working nights this week, which means more chances for him to work online during the day time, but less time with the kiddo's at night. I"m a little nervous about getting dinner ready for 3 kids by myself, and clean up, (I'm a stickler for clean up), but will enjoy having him here during the day. Adam brings the kids to school and 8 and picks them up at 3, then leaves to get to work by 4. He has Monday and Sundays off now, and Anthony and dad will be doing Royal Ambassadors at our church on Sunday evenings now!
On Wednesday evenings Skyanna and Anthony will be doing Kids Praise at our church, I'll be helping to teach the 4 year olds, and I have no idea what Ben will do! He's supposed to be in the nursery for one short hour, but he really doesn't do nursery well. Every Sunday I get called to come get him from the nursery; Anthony was the same way when he was a babe! He really didn't start going to nursery/class until he was 3.
We love our new home, and are slowly unpacking. I still have nothing on the walls, but I feel so busy just trying to keep a clean house, keep up on laundry, make meals, and play with the kids! I'm not too worried about decorating at this time.....
My sis-in-law, Kristy, is getting ready to have her baby girl in a few weeks or less! I get to meet my niece at Christmas, and can hardly wait! Kristy and Bub are coming to Texas for Christmas, and bringing Tonka, their sweet little dog. I can't wait to hold that baby girl!!
My mom is coming up middle of September, and my dad and Jill are coming for Ben's Bday in October! I felt the first bit of coolness in the air this morning, it must have been in the high 70's, and I almost needed a sweater! I can't wait for it to cool off so I can go walking again, and the kids can play outside!
Time to put Ben down for his morning nap, and plan dinner for tonight!

I waited on the Lord...

"I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand." (Psalm 40:1-2).
OH my goodness, I'd love to say that all of this verse applies to my week, but I really feel that I lost the battle with the "waited patiently" part! It's ironic that this week I began Beth Moore's book, "Get out of that Pit" and it's touching home within my heart...and then..on Sunday, our SMBS teacher gave a talk on satans work in the church, I guess I should have been expecting a blow out of some sorts this week!
God's been leading me in a firm direction closer to his plan for me, and I must say, my path has been quite smooth, until the bumps hit!
First, I was plagued with dreams and thoughts that were not from above, but this worked out okay, because I have a little blessing who wakes me at 5:30am, and during this time I studied and prayed with my Lord.
But due to stressed and insecurities during the week, I somehow backed myself up into a corner, and found myself tearing at my hair to get out!
Skyanna has had numerous tests done this week, we are trying to figure out some urine difficulties we have been having with her. Thank goodness, they tested for Diabetes Insipidus, (through much pain on Sissy's part) and it came back negative! Her glucose is still low, and her energy level up and down, but I have a peace in my heart now. But I will tell you, waiting for those results brought out every sinful thing inside of me, and I struggled through the day on my own strength, which of course, did not work! How do you place your child in God's hands? I thought I had..but when it came down to crunch time, I was still relying on my own strength.
I am also reminded how very lucky we are, as this week has been extremely difficult for many of my dear friends who are struggling with illnesses of their own, or their children. While I was freaking out over the results of a diabetes test, some dear friends were waiting for much more serious results, life changing results, and doing it with a peace that can only be from above! Isolation has been my downfall and crutch this week, as due to unexpected appointments I have missed my weekly mother outings, including an awesome speaker I've been dying to hear!
Today is a relaxed day, (so far!) with plans to take a walk if it warms up, and take Skyanna to speech later in the afternoon. Maybe I'll visit with some girlfriends down the road, that's MY plan anyways..we'll see which direction God has planned for my day!

Book club cancelled for me this week...looking like Mom2Mom will be cancelled for me as well..back to isolation! Unless of course, I feel comfortable leaving Ben at home with grandma, but we'll see..he needs his mamma when he's sick! Girls, I'm putting together a prayer scrap book, super tiny, like 4x6 size, if anyone has scrap book page scraps, I'll take'm!! It's actually something we're doing in the mom2mom class, but looks like I'll be doing it from home. Ben still soooo sick, but oxegyn good. Anthony came home from school crying of a headache, and he has an ear infection, his first one! Please pray for Ben, he is so sick and lathargic and miserable, it's hard being little!
Yesterday I had another migraine that took me for a loop, and I'm so thankful it's gone! It seems that I have to be on my toes these days with all the germs going around.
Ooooh, babe crying, he's awake finally. Now will he eat for me???

Counting the Days...

We are counting the days till Christmas, although Anthony thinks that there's a strong possibility Santa may surprise us and show up early. This morning he raced downstairs to check his stocking, hope quickly fading to sadness. The kids each have Christmas chains that they tear off each day, courtesy of Auntie Kristy and Uncle Bub! Grandma Nancy sent some great advent calendars, but Sissy uses hers as a sticker collection book, when she's not tearing pieces off of it!
Yesterday I....(I mean "we") had so much fun setting up the train track and making miniature presents to deliver to our Christmas village! Mamma elf was the best Christmas package maker ever, and I really didn't lose my patience when little hands wanted to "help" tape my miniature packages. Sissy set up her pet shop people around a blue Thomas track, and Anthony used the wooden tracks and added cabins with Lincon Logs. I worked really hard on my little packages, I made like 15 of them, with real wrapping paper and everything! I put them all in neat little piles so the children could divide them evenly and deliver them to our Christmas Village.
I didn't anticipate the tiny little wrappings strewn all over my playroom from my tiny creations, or the screaming that would ensue with the clean up process. Oh, and of course some little presents made it downstairs, and papa had to pick up tiny pieces of paper scattered all through out the house! Oh, by the way, baby elf was sleeping the whole time, thanks to grandma and her quiet bedroom!
I'd like to take this time to pat myself on the shoulder for organizing all the kiddo's toys, includeing their toy chests, and cleaning out my craft drawers in honor of Christmas. Now I fly around here desperately trying to keep toys the way I had them, anticipating how happy my little ones will be with my diligence and perseverance. Sissy destroyed her room in 10 minutes flat, and Anthony re-arranged his to suit his taste. But no fear! I race around frantically and put everything back in it's place, knowing that my order will make Christmas all the nicer.
You know what I've realized through this process? The joy of having things in order is nothing compared to the joy of spreading those toys out to make a Christmas Village, and taking some time to be intimately involved with my children's imagination. I find that I am really not so far from those care free days of childhood, and actually have to reign in my creativity so as not to stifle my kids learning. I still want things my way, and yes Jon, I am still a really sore loser with board games!
Playing with my kids helps me to see them as little people, little creations on loan to me from God, looking to me and Adam to guide them and love them, yet not stifle their desires and imagination. I'm really not so far from childhood, and once in a while, especially this time of year, it's good to go back!
"Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." Matthew 19:14